Heard from the vet. Not good news. Even if the antibiotics work this time, she is in the beginning stages of kidney failure. And if the antibiotics would work, no telling how fast she would go downhill afterwards. Could be days, weeks, maybe a few months.

She’s been such a good dog for so long. And now I am reduced to having to make a decision about her quality of life. And I’m stuck at work, trying to keep my shit together, and I can’t leave because there is only 2 of us here to keep the ship afloat and we have major conversion project happening Monday night and there is still work to do.

And I’m typing and I don’t know what I’m doing. I know what the decision is, I owe her this decision, but it is so goddamned difficult and it hurts so damn much.